Tmrrw if you don’t know (probably because I am a horrible person) i’ll be starting my journey into the United States Airforce as a trainee. I can’t say I’m not nervous because I’m terrified a bit. It is more so the feeling of not wanting to fail or disappoint myself and others that I really care about. Anyway I just wanted to say I am going to miss the lot of you and miss being on tumblr and chatting with you guys, seeing a glimpse into your lives and etc. I know for sure I’ll think of some of you to keep me from going insane :) k bye for now. I want to queue this but…nah.

I finally decided to watch The Perks of Being A Wallflower and truthfully I have no strength left. While there was nothing I could relate with the main lead Charlie, I found myself deeply invested in his emotional happiness and sadness. 30 mins into the movie and I was having break downs of sorts. Charlie represents to me anyway that one person who you always want to root for and just want them to succeed. I felt like Charlie, I understood Charlie, and ultimately I became him as I watched this film. Haven’t had this level of emotional break down for a movie since I watched 10,000 B.C. I have this thing when I watch films or read books, that turn out to be ones I love, my mind does this weird thing where the lines between fiction and reality become blurred. I become the characters in books or films and their experiences become my own even if I don’t relate in my own personal life. This film in particular had me crying and feeling horrible and thinking I was back in high school and how alone it must feel when you don’t have someone who understands your quirks. I mean I suppose essentially that is what a good Author and director is mean’t to do. To transform your perception of your world and bring you into the world they have created. So I guess if I view it as such then I am not so crazy, weird. I just don’t think I can handle another emotional roller coaster any time soon. Brilliant film nonetheless.

If you love someone you have to let them go, and if they come back then it was mean’t to be. Well I think I got this, it feels nice.

Love is like a fairytale that’s very well written

soft lips, scary thrill if I ever be forgiven from this

fresh love…cause fresh love is the best love

the type of love you can’t even imagine your next love if there is one.

Wisdom is something we lack in this age,

it’s all fun and games until the kids come.

But baby what’s your wish?

Ever since we first kissed, my mom’s been dreaming of fish

We’re together now, I don’t care who you been with

This love isn’t a myth

So come and chase the sun and in my heart you’ll always live

And just know I’ll always tell you what it is

We can chase the sunset

Stare into the moonlight

Let’s dream of a love

That lights up the sky

If he doesn’t make your ovaries (existent or none) fall out with his sexiness then castrate him at once

When he calls after falling asleep on you only to tell you goodnight, where dey do dat at doe? OMG, kinda died a little when that happened; Of course the good kind of dying. In the meantime My heart continues to melt. Lol at my figurative speech.

I’m not the best thing you could ever have, thanks for constantly pointing it out to me.

Man I tell you Tumblr is the number one place where Attractive people always think they are ugly, useless, pathetic, forever alone or all the above. And the ironic part about it is, they are never any of those things. Just a bunch of humans who haven’t realised the purpose of their lives, which simply is to live, hell most of them are too young and probably have so much that will happen in future for them, but they don’t care about that, they only care about now. The now is so important they forget to live for the future. Truly not many have much going on now but I Think that’s what growing up is all about. You eventually will have so much going on you will miss being youthful.